Guest Post: Susan Maciolek on #Writing, #Art, & Chiffon

“The lightest of barriers against a breeze is the little head scarf of chiffon.”
~ from CHIFFON

art-brush-painting-colorsSusan Maciolek has written a lovely book of art and verse called Chiffon that grew from the simple image of a woman waiting for a bus. Her guest post today is a testament to the joy found in pursuing a project for the love of the story and includes artwork from the pages of her book.


The Delicate, Diaphanous Tale of How Chiffon Came to Be

by Susan K Maciolek

When I used to take the bus to work, one of the regulars at the bus stop was a little dumpling of a woman who was always neatly dressed in knit tops and pants. She had the kind of immovable hairdo some older ladies are partial to and she sometimes wore a scarf over her hair. The scarf was white and semi-sheer – a chiffon scarf – and I hadn’t seen one in years. Seeing it reminded me of Christmas shopping trips to Chicago when I was a kid, where ladies wore chiffon scarves in the middle of December, and it mystified me. How could something so flimsy do any good in such cold, windy weather?

Chiffon in groupAh, yes, the very gossamer quality of the chiffon scarf was the point: it kept a bouffant hairstyle intact without mashing it down the way heavier fabrics would. And like other scarves, the chiffon came in silk, or the more affordable nylon, and later polyester. I wondered if chiffon scarves might be an ethnic thing, adopted by European immigrants in industrial cities near the Great Lakes – perhaps an American successor to the babushka? Chiffon scarves had been spotted in Chicago and Milwaukee, maybe we’d find them in Cleveland and Buffalo, too.

However it came to be and wherever else it might be worn, the chiffon scarf was still a Midwestern thing, and I was captivated by the way something so light and insubstantial was deployed for such hard work. Defending hair against the elements is no small task on the shores of Lake Michigan. I had to know more.

Chiffon fallingI resisted the compulsion to learn the complete history of chiffon scarves since I wasn’t doing a research paper, just a lighthearted salute. But soon phrases like “a sheer pastel wisp” and “beauty shop hair” started dancing in my head. I eventually captured them in a story told in verse and void of any illustrations. My writing group at that time didn’t hate Chiffon, but they didn’t warm to it – disappointing since I was so taken with the notion. Still, I kept at it and even sent the story off to a local magazine. When the editor replied “We don’t publish poetry,” I thought, He doesn’t get it. It’s not poetry, it’s humorous verse!

Chiffon didn’t fit neatly into any market at the time, so I moved on to other stories and let it languish for years. When going through old manuscripts, I found it again and it struck me that what was missing were illustrations. That’s when I became inspired.

Chiffon walkingThough it’s better to create art along with your story and not afterward, as a visual person I already had scenes in my head for most stanzas. I also knew my Chiffon ladies had to be rounded and simple to draw, especially their hands. I’d done figure drawing for years and knew I’d fixate on getting every finger right, which could take forever. Then I unearthed a clip I’d had in my files for ages (you never know when something you’ve kept will come in handy) of a blob-like cartoon creature with pointy hands. Problem solved – I knew that pointy hands would suit my ladies just fine (and give their creator a break). Pipe stem legs and bee-stung lips completed their appearance.

Chiffon coverWith Chiffon, I didn’t have all the doubts I usually have about my work. This time I had a vision in my head of how the book should be. I chose to keep the drawings simple and sketchy. I knew I wanted the cover clean and uncluttered, with just the title in an inviting typeface. I found a gorgeous shade of green cover stock called “Casaba” at Broadway Paper, along with matching chiffon ribbon to use as a decorative “binding.”

At this point I sent the book off again, this time to a unique and arty publisher. As is so often the case, their only response was no response–a rejection. Rather than sulk and let the story sit on the shelf again, I headed to a local printer and handed over my flash drive. When the guy at the counter checked my PDF file, he chuckled as he read it. That made my day; he got it! I shared copies with friends, and they got it, too. Eventually I found the courage to approach retailers about selling it.

Chiffon is one of the few projects I’ve done that ended up almost exactly as I envisioned; I had a certain image in mind as the end goal and felt driven to achieve it. What I pictured was a small illustrated book in a beautiful color, tied with a sheer ribbon. Eventually that came to be.

Chiffon is available at The Sparrow Collective on Kinnickinnic Avenue in Bay View and at Woodland Pattern Book Center on Locust Street in Riverwest in Milwaukee.

Exploring New Avenues: Guest Post by Author, Jane Hammons

…[C]reative expression, whether that means writing, dancing, bird-watching, or cooking, can give a person almost everything that he or she has been searching for: enlivenment, peace, meaning, and the incalculable wealth of time spent quietly in beauty. ~Anne Lamott

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Whenever we create something, anything, the result is a shot of adrenaline, a skip in our step, a whole new outlook on the day. Todays guest post comes from Jane Hammons (@JHammons), who writes about exploring creativity in new ways.


What’s next?

by Jane Hammons

That’s a question I am asked frequently now that I’ve retired from thirty years of teaching writing at UC Berkeley. It’s a question with many answers, sometimes no answer.

Because I’m a writer, I think the assumption is that I’ll say I’m going to write for hours every day. I hope to. But if I don’t, I’m going to try not to freak out about it.

I’ve always written fairly regularly, but I’ve also always taken breaks. Or it might be more accurate to say that sometimes writing takes a break from me. I’ll sit down to work on something and just be filled with dread or self-loathing or ennui, to name a few of the awful feelings writers sometimes experience.

I used to feel much worse about the breaks than I do now, partly because I turn my attention to other things that frequently bring me back to writing. But even if they don’t, I’m not too concerned. Because they take me somewhere, and as long as I’m moving forward and not settling into the conditions mentioned above, I’m okay.

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Taking photographs is one of those things. I began taking pictures four years ago when I read about a project for journalists who were to document their town by taking a photograph of it every day for a year. I’m not a journalist, so I didn’t hold myself to their guidelines. I just liked the idea of taking a photo a day. So in December 2011, I made it my New Year’s Resolution. But on New Year’s Day, 2012, one of my sisters died suddenly, and I discovered that I was Executor of her estate (something I’ve written about in the essay Final Accounting published in Full Grown People). I wasn’t sure I had time teach my classes, let alone write or take photographs.

What fell by the wayside was writing, but that opened the door to photography. I freed myself from the idea that I had to take good photographs. After all, I am not a photographer. What do I know about visual composition or lighting or f-stops? I allowed myself to be a true beginner and to not judge the product, but just engage in the process. And while I was nervous about it, I began posting the photos to an album on Facebook. I loved the immediate gratification of getting responses from people about some aspect of the photograph. The long-term payoff was that I began to see differently, which made me think differently, and that led me back to writing. On Twitter I came across Tom Mason’s 330 Words where he publishes a photograph accompanied by a short piece of writing. No editing, no rejecting: just submit the photo with a piece of writing and it would appear on his website. I didn’t worry too much about the writing (it’s just 330 words!) and focused on the image as I wrote, usually quickly and without revising much, eventually publishing five pieces there.

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Photo credit: Jane Hammons

This writing made me want to think more about images. And there is no better person to help with that than the brilliant cartoonist Lynda Barry. Joining the Instagram  #continuouspractice group, I post a photo to represent the day’s writing. I often photograph a page from one of Lynda Barry’s books– What It is or Syllabus—to highlight the aspect of creativity I want to address in my writing. I also use the app Paper Artist to make the image, in some way, my own (and hope Barry doesn’t mind).

Photographs tell stories; written stories create images. We know this. But just as when I begin writing a story, I often don’t know what the story is; when I shoot a photo, I often don’t know what I’ve captured until later when I download the images. What I see when I frame a shot in the lens is not the same thing as the image produced. And, of course, that image can be changed in numerous ways just as a piece of writing can be revised: re-envisioned.

1053 is a poem I wrote about an abandoned building down the street from where I live. Focusing on the shopping cart, I created the character of a homeless woman. A year later, 1053 is a Nest.

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~ Jane Hammons

And now the Nest is empty (I took a break from writing this to go take the photo below.)

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~ Jane Hammons

The world tells its story best. As human beings we have the privilege of interpreting and remaking that story in a variety of forms and genres. It’s also a responsibility, I believe, to be attentive, observant storytellers. Camera in hand, I tend to notice things that I might not have otherwise.

What’s next? Moving my house into a storage locker; getting into my car with cameras, iPad and laptop; driving around; taking pictures; writing. That’s the extent of my plan.

And eventually, I will have to find a place to live!

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Jane Hammons-2Jane Hammons is the recipient of a Derringer Award for flash fiction from the Short Fiction Mystery Society. Her writing appears in several anthologies including Hint Fiction (W. W. Norton) and The Maternal is Political (Seal Press). She has published in a variety of places, including Alaska Quarterly Review, Columbia Journalism Review, Crimespree Magazine, San Francisco Chronicle Magazine, and Word Riot.  She has work forthcoming in Akashic Books’ online series Mondays are Murder. She’ll be blogging about and posting photos from her upcoming excursion at Lighting Out for the Territory.

Guest Post: Mel Miskimen on Things We keep

Last week I finished teaching my Flash Nonfiction course. When I planned the prompts and the assignments, I hadn’t intended to focus on any one theme, but synchronicity often plays a hand in writing. During the four weeks–at different times and under different prompts–each student wrote on things we keep: a box of written confessions, a ball of string, a pencil from years ago unused but somehow symbolic.

Mel Miskimen, my guest today, writes about things she keeps: messages from her mother. Not of the written kind, though. Something even better.

Messages from Mom

IMG_1271Officially my mother had nothing terminal. She had a heart condition that she took pills for. She didn’t have Alzheimer’s, just dementia. Just? According to my WebMD degree, I diagnosed her with Failure To Thrive – impaired physical function, malnutrition, depression, and cognitive impairment. Check. Check. Check and double check.

I hadn’t planned on having a vocal record of her decline, but . . . funny how that worked out. Prior to her hospitalization, I could count on coming home to fourteen messages on my machine, ten from her. I kept some of my mother’s voice messages and made them into a playlist on iTunes. I play them whenever I need . . . you know, something.

I listen to The Cake after a big family get-together, first thing in the morning, when I sit down to write at my computer because that’s the time she would have called and interrupted my writing mojo. It’s an uptempo number. She’s snappy. Sounds like one of those octogenarians who  travel in groups and spend hours rehearsing their South Pacific number for the Senior Center Showcase.

Monday. 9:18 a.m.
Hi, Melly, this is mother . . . I just wanted to call and tell you what a great time we had yesterday–it was very special–and the cake was dee-licious! Buh Bye!

I recorded this in August for a co-mingling of my birthday and my father’s when I tackled the time-consuming Sunshine Cake recipe handed down from my grandmother, that my mother used to make but because she hadn’t the stamina to fold the egg whites into the batter, instead of being light and airy, her Sunshine Cakes were dense and stormy.

And then, a couple weeks later, I mentioned to her that I needed help putting in a zipper in my son’s very expensive, low mileage, winter jacket. I really didn’t need help, I just thought it would be something to keep her brain cells chugging along. Putting a zipper in a winter jacket in August was not high on my list of priorities. My mother had a different list and it was all about The Zipper.

Thursday. 10:42 a.m.
Hi, Melly, it’s your Mom . . . come to me–uh–come over here tomorrow and pick me up . . . I’ll show you how to do that zipper! Bye.

Friday. 5:46 p.m.
Hi, Melly, it’s your mother . . . just wondering if you got that zipper in . . . if not . . . I’ll come tomorrow . . . and help you with it. Bye.

Saturday. 12:28 p.m.
Did you get that zipper in? >sigh< Um . . . Call me back, uh . . .  when you get a minute . . . Bye.

Was she sitting at her kitchen table, staring out the window, fingering her doilies, waiting, waiting, waiting for me to ring her on the zipper hotline? Why had I been avoiding her calls? Because . . . I was a teensy weensy bit annoyed. Didn’t she have anything better to do than obsess over a damn zipper? Which made me feel guilty because . . . she’s my mother, and someday she might not be here, and then I’d feel even more guilt.

A month later, following her first hospital-rehab stint – she had fallen – tests revealed a shrinking brain due to . . . they couldn’t say. All our brains were shrinking, they said. Such a comfort.

I had come over to spend the afternoon with her and when I walked into the kitchen, she was sitting on the pad of her walker, near the same table that she showed me how to bake, roll out pie dough and cut out a skirt on the bias. She looked dried up, hollow. I was afraid to give her a hug. I didn’t want to break her. The house had that smell that no amount of Glade plug-ins could cover up and that’s when I sort of knew, on a gut level that she was dying. I told her I was worried that she had given up. She assured me she was just tired. The next day she called and left a message. There was a noticeable change in the quality of her voice, a smallness, a slight hoarse vibrato, but still traces of her old self.

Monday. 10:14 a.m.
Hi Melly . . . it’s your mom . . . I’m doing much better today.
Uh . . . I got up . . . I ate my breakfast and . . . I just–I’m doing better. So . . . you don’t have to worry about me–if you were going to worry! . . . don’t worry about me. Bye. Bye.

She had given me the okay not to worry about her but . . . still, I worried about me . . . whether or not I was emotionally prepared for what would happen next.

Wednesday. 2:57 p.m.
Melly, I need your HELP! I bought some stockings for myself . . . those stretch ones, you know? and I can’t get them on my feet . . .they’re too tight . . .we bought a small . . . too small, then we bought a medium, too small, we bought a–we didn’t buy a large–but your father is so impatient, just now he said,’To hell with it! You’re not wearing them!’ So here I am . . . sitting with these things half on and half off  . . .  call me back . . . please?

Wow. So much packed into a few minutes. My father’s fear-based frustrations, me being her number two go-to person. Helping her get into those compression stockings was – remember that episode of Seinfeld, when Kramer needed Jerry’s help getting into skinny jeans and the more Jerry pulled, the more Kramer slid off the sofa? Yeah, like that.

Her calls dwindled. I missed coming home to her voice messages. I asked her why she didn’t call. “I don’t call?” she said. She went into the hospital right after Easter for surgery to alleviate fluid build up around her shrinking brain. And, it went well. The doctors said we shouldn’t expect a miracle.

Monday. 9:28 p.m.
Melly . . . Where IS your father?!

Boom. No, sing-songy ‘it’s me, your mother,’ no small talk. Her voice was strong. Forceful. Very commanding. Almost demanding.

He said he was coming to pick me up!

I almost start to feel bad for my father, about the dressing down she’s going to give him the next day when he comes to visit her, and then she went off an a riff that I did not expect.

I’m at the airport! Waiting! >click<

The nurses all said it was the drugs and the shock of surgery, but . . . a couple days later guess what? she took her one way flight to the after life, so . . . my opinion . . . I think she was at the airport. Waiting.

Hi, Mom! It’s Mel. Um . . . just calling to say I miss you . . . but, I get it, I know you are in a better place and all, but still . . .oh, and guess what? . . . I finally got around to putting in that zipper. It only took three years! So, come winter, your grandson will be warm. So, don’t worry . . .  if you were going to worry . . . don’t worry. Bye!

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Photo on 2-2-15 at 10.07 AM 2Mel Miskimen is a regular contributor for More Magazine. She is also a contributing writer for the Huffington Post 50/50. Her break-through essay? I’m Changing My Underpants and the Economy. She’s the past recipient of the Wisconsin Regional Writers award for humor.

Mel lives in a drafty, 120 year old empty nest with her husband of 30 plus years and a black labrador named – the first dog allowed on the furniture, because “That is what happens when the kids leave.” She has written a second book – The Seamus Sessions – a heartwarming, inspiring story of grappling with loss, finding hope and healing with the help of a badly behaved labrador. Visit her website or follow her on Twitter.