Writing is Taking Risks: Guest Post by Leesa Freeman

Lessa Freeman and I share several things in common: we are misplaced Texans and lovers of Dr. Pepper (though it’s off the menu for both of us…pure torture), and we both have a fire to write. Today, Leesa talks about her journey to publication–about finding courage. As a bonus, she’s giving away an autographed copy of her novel, THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE. Just drop your name in the comments. It’s that easy.

Take the Risk to Blossom

Leesa Freeman

headshotnewWriting saved my life.

Yes, I realize that’s a rather audacious statement, but follow me on this for a moment. Before I discovered I’m a writer, I kind of drifted, lost. I thought it would be “really cool” to write a book, but more or less in the same way I thought it would be “really cool” to learn to play the guitar or scale Mt. Everest or go skydiving. (Have I mentioned I’m desperately afraid of heights?) But I kept myself from doing it with all the usual excuses: I don’t have time, what the heck do you talk about for 200 pages, and who would give a rat’s hat what I have to say, anyway?

“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” ~ Anaïs Nin

Several years ago I had a dream that I couldn’t quite get out of my head, and I sat down at my computer with equal parts curiosity and desperation. In my dream, a girl was in a hospital waiting room waiting for her friend to get out of surgery so she could tell him for the first time she loved him. It was surreal, it was vivid, and I had to know why she hadn’t told him before.

And so I began writing just for me. Just to move on. Once I was done with this piddly little short story, it was gonna go somewhere on my hard drive and that would be that, right?

Wrong.

The more I wrote, the more I had to write, until I couldn’t sleep, couldn’t wait to get home when I was out, and was generally obsessed with this whole thing. And somewhere in that process, I became a writer.

“Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one’s courage.” ~ Anaïs Nin

There’s something magical in discovering what you are truly good at. Not that I knew everything when I began, not that I know everything now, but that moment when you not only realize not only have you found your gift, but you have the courage to embrace it, call it forth, and make it your own is an Angels-singing-on-high feeling.

And that’s what saved my life, because I was able to see myself differently. I was able to become who I’d always wanted to be, but was too afraid of rejection, or being vulnerable, or whatever crazy excuse I’d come up with that really boiled down to one thing: if I didn’t try, I couldn’t fail.

Once I realized I couldn’t fail because I had already succeeded, it became easier to take on all the other challenges I had rejected out of fear. I found the courage to embrace the things that had previously scared me. Since then, not only have I published my first book, THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE, I’ve written a second for which I’m currently looking for an agent, and I’m working on a third. That in and of itself is huge, but as I write this, I’ve also lost almost 100 pounds – I couldn’t keep becoming Who I’m Meant to Be while feeling bad about who I was.

“If you do not breathe through writing, if you do not cry out in writing, or sing in writing, then don’t write, because our culture has no use for it.” ~ Anaïs Nin

Writing is, for me, therapy. Through it I have spent hours at my computer opening my heart and my emotions, trying to immerse myself into my character’s lives to tell their stories as fully and deeply as I possibly can, and it has been those moments of laughing with them, crying with them, and rejoicing in them that has given me myself.

Maybe writing didn’t save my life in the “traditional” sense.  You could argue that I wasn’t technically dying, and I would agree with you. I wasn’t. But I would also argue that without embracing the gifts we are each given and finding the courage to use them unapologetically are we really living?

“Throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back, a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country.” ~ Anais Nin

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A native Texan, Leesa Freeman enjoys escaping the chill of New England, if only in her imagination, often setting her stories in the places she loved growing up. Some of her favorite moments are the ones where it’s just her, her Mac, and simply conversing with the people who live inside her head, and sharing their lives with those who take the time to read her stories. She lives in Connecticut with her husband and two daughters, where she is also an artist, avid baker, a self-proclaimed music snob, and recovering Dr. Pepper addict. Visit her website and follow her on Facebook.

About the book:

WisdomTodd Randall spent his life pushing the limits: stealing a pack of cigarettes and a beer and coming home smelling like tobacco and cheap bear; “borrowing” his father’s car, usually to pick up girls; snorting lines of OxyContin after a knee injury on the football field, eventually landing in rehab at the age of seventeen. Now he works in his uncle’s auto body shop, struggling to stay clean, and refusing to get close to anyone because he fears he is unfit for human consumption. When he meets Shawn Clifton, for the first time begins to see himself differently, and even though it scares the hell out of him, he feels compelled to reach for the life she offers.

THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE is the story of one man’s desire to accept his mistakes, find the courage to allow himself to truly love, and finally become the person he so wants to be. Read an excerpt HERE.

Drop your name in the comments for a chance to win a copy of THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE or purchase your own copy on Amazon. Random.org will choose the winner of Leesa’s autographed copy on Tuesday, November 12th.

Q&A with Stevan Allred, A Simplified Map of the Real World

You cannot grieve for a puzzle, nor celebrate the death of a cipher. You have to make some sense out of the man first.
~ from “The Painted Man” in A Simplified Map of the Real World

Allred Simplified Map coverMaps guide us, direct us, show us the way through convoluted terrain. Stevan Allred’s collection of short stories, A Simplified Map of the Real World, does much of the same with characters who live in the imagined town of Renata, Oregon.

Anchored in the landscape of Renata, Allred’s characters seem straightforward in their “small-town” style. But as each story unfolds, more is revealed: in the nightstand of a pompous neighbor, in the complexity of Uncle Lenny, through conversations between fathers and sons and the resurgence of old high school relations.

A Simplified Map of the Real World was recently chose as one of Multnomah County Library’s Wordstock 2013 fiction picks. I’m honored to host Stevan for a Q&A on his book and thrilled to include book giveaway (courtesy of Forest Avenue Press). Drop your name in the comments at the end of the interview for a chance at your own copy of A Simplified Map of the Real World. Random.org will chose the winner on Tuesday, October 8th.

Now, welcome Stevan Allred!

CC: I know Renata, Oregon is a fictional town, but does it mirror any real place in which you’ve lived or travelled?

DSC01389SA: Renata is very much a place of my imagination.  Its geography overlays the geography of my home town, Estacada, Oregon, and would be recognizable to anyone who knows the place, but if you try to drive the real world Estacada by following the roads in A Simplified Map of the Real World, you’re likely to wind up, as one of my characters does, “in the ditch.”

Both my parents are from small towns in central Utah.  I used to spend part of my summers in a town called Emery, population 308.  There have been other small towns in my life too, and Renata feels like all of those places to me.  What strikes me as similar about all the small towns I’ve known is how they try to hold the outside world at bay.  Portland, Oregon, is only thirty miles away from Estacada, and yet there are plenty of Estacadans who haven’t been to the city in years.  For many, the small town where they live is, as Arnie Gossard says in the opening story, “a place small enough that I can keep track of everything that matters and big enough to hold everything I need.”

CC: This quote in “The Painted Man” is one of my favorites:

I felt, for a moment, as if I were inside a kaleidoscope, and all the complicated bits of my life…were shifting, aligning themselves into a new pattern.

I love this thread that runs throughout the story, of uncovering and piecing together the inner workings of character, a thread that pulls the book together as a whole. When it comes to writing such stories, do you find they unfold organically? Or, do you plan the reveal before you begin the first draft?

SA: It’s very much the former.  Someone, and I’ve long since forgotten whom, told me a long time ago that I would never surprise a reader if I didn’t first surprise myself.  I start with so little–a few bits of language, some vague notion of who might be saying those words, and often a random element from the real world.  It’s a process of discovery rather than one of planning.  When I started “His Ticky Little Mind,” the name Volpe was on the side of a pickup truck that passed by me just as I saw that one of my neighbors had cut down a tree in their front yard, leaving a twelve foot high stump still standing.  The story grew out of those two things, and some phrases that were knocking around inside my head.

CC: I continue to hear great things about the Oregon writing community, and your book is a collaboration of Oregon talents–from Forest Avenue Press’ own Laura Stanfill to Gigi Little, the cover artist. Aside from this particular partnership, what do you appreciate most about your local writing circles?

SA: We are a state of readers and writers.  The Portland library system has the highest rate of use per capita of any system in the country, and my local Estacada library hums with activity seven days a week.  The writing scene here is bigger than I can keep track of by quite a bit, and it’s lively and full of talent.  People are supportive of each other, and generous, and I’m constantly discovering new books and new writers who make me think ‘Wow, what a great story.’  There are lots and lots of reading series in bars and coffee shops and libraries.  There are many small to micro-sized presses, the zine scene here is world class, and Portland is a center for graphic novelists.  All that abundance is inspiring.

CC: What are you reading these days?

SA: I’ve recently finished Telegraph Avenue, by Michael Chabon, a writer whom I admire greatly.  Also two short story collections, both of which I recommend highly:  Natalie Serber’s Shout Her Lovely Name, and Lucia Perillo’s Happiness Is a Chemical in the Brain. I’m just starting Tracy Kidder’s Strength in What Remains.

CC: What advice would you offer for writers on the road to publication?

SA: Write what you love to read.  You’re going to spend a lot of time alone with your writing-you might as well make it something you really enjoy.

Also this, from Ellen Gilchrist:  F*** doubt.  The dishes can wait.  Serve the whole.

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Stevan Allred lives and writes in a house in the woods halfway between Fisher’s Mill and Viola, in rural Clackamas County, outside of Portland, Oregon. He is the editor of Dixon Ticonderoga, a zine that explores the intimate relationship between divorce and pencils. He teaches writing at The Pinewood Table and has been widely published in literary magazines. Stevan is also available to attend book clubs in the Portland metro area or by phone or Skype. Contact Forest Avenue Press for more information.

Purchase your own copy of A Simplified Map of the Real World  from Powell’s or on Amazon, or drop your name in the comments for a chance to win a copy!

 

Q&A with Amy Sue Nathan, Author of The Glass Wives

“Evie had not cornered the market on loss, and she knew it. There were many ways for a life to be rerouted.”  ~ From The Glass Wives

We make plans. We have routines. We know exactly how life is supposed to unfold. But, in an instant, those plans crumble or shift under some unpredictable force.

Glass Wives_final coverSuch is the case for Evie Glass in Amy Sue Nathan’s debut novel, The Glass Wives. When Evie’s ex-husband dies suddenly, she sets out to do whatever it takes to walk her kids through grief and get their lives back to some sort of normal.

But, normal is relative, and every opportunity Evie sees as a chance to settle back into life is interrupted by the sudden arrival of Nicole, her ex-husband’s young wife and the reason Evie’s marriage fell apart in the first place. Nicole and her young baby show up at Evie’s doorstep, sending Evie on a journey through her own grief and shaking up every idea she had of family.

I’m honored to host Amy Sue Nathan today for an author Q&A. At the end of the interview, leave your name in the comments for a chance to win a copy of The Glass Wives. Random.org will choose the winner on Tuesday, September 17th.

Welcome, Amy!

CC: In the Glass Wives, no one expects Nicole, the widow of Evie’s ex-husband, and her baby to show up on Evie’s door step looking for help. But when she does, Evie is forced to confront her prescribed ideas of “normal” and “family.” We, as humans, are so resistant to change. Was it difficult to buck any set notions of family you might have had as you began writing this story? Or, did you find, as the characters’ lives unfolded, that the story itself helped soften those perceptions?

ASN: I struggled with my own perception of family when I divorced. No matter what anyone said, actions spoke louder than words and I was treated differently by friends. So in a way, I wrote The Glass Wives as a reminder to myself, and perhaps a P.S. to others, that there are many ways to be a family and one way is not better than any other. And that single moms like being included.

CC: In the essay at the end of your book, “What Doesn’t Kill You Makes You Stronger (and Will Certainly Make Its Way into Your Novel),” you admit that the seed for The Glass Wives has roots in real life experience. Did you worry about backlash from friends or family or question loss of privacy as you got closer to publication?

ASN: A little bit. Then my daughter read the novel and was so aware of how it was fiction, that I stopped caring what anyone else thought.  She obviously realized where the idea sparked, and she playfully called me on a few things I snagged from real life.  Obviously she knew there was no one living in our basement, so the whole “this is your life” was kind of off the table.

CC: Your penned work ranges from blogs, like Writer Unboxed and Beyond the Margins, to short stories to your column on parenting, The View from Here. How did this myriad of literary direction ultimately guide you towards the publication of your debut novel?

ASN: I always wrote non-fiction until I started writing The Glass Wives. I think that everything before the novel just bolstered my confidence in my ability to get it done, no matter the outcome. I started writing again in 2006 after a long hiatus, so the fact that I was able to freelance and get published in non-fiction paved the way for the moxie it took to believe I could write a novel, find an agent, and get published. Had it not happened, my plan was to write another novel and start again. I wanted the traditional route.

CC: What are you reading these days? 

ASN: Right now I’m reading The Widow Waltz by Sally Koslow.

CC: What advice would you offer for other writers on the road to publication?

ASN: Have confidence. Seek guidance. Be humble. Have confidence. Also, give yourself a break if (and when) you need it. Of course, don’t give up. Did I mention, have confidence?

AmyNathanMediumFileAmy Sue Nathan lives and writes near Chicago, where she hosts the popular blog Women’s Fiction Writers. She has published articles in The Huffington Post, the Chicago Tribune, and The New York Times Online, among many others. Amy is the proud mom of a son and a daughter in college, and a willing servant to two rambunctious rescued dogs. Visit her website, follow her on Twitter, or subscribe to her author page on Facebook

Don’t forget to drop your name in the comments for a chance to win your own copy of The Glass Wives. Random.org will choose the winner on Tuesday, September 17th.