Okay. I’m listening.

I love this blog. In fact, I love it a little too much.

That thought surfaced several times in the past few months, but in the last few days I looked at the ugly truth of it.

Blogging, while providing a great outlet to hone my writing skills, sometimes serves as a distraction for me.

Just when I decide to sit down and face that novel again, I realize I’m due for a post, whether it’s Wednesday or the weekend.

I made a commitment, I tell myself, and if anything, I follow through.

Sure, I follow through, on shot-in-the-arm kind of writing. But, the bigger projects sit on the sidelines, waiting. And, the longer they sit, the more difficult it becomes to bring them back into focus.

Several posts by other writers shed light on the importance of keeping my blogging in balance with my outside writing.

In Lisa Rivero’s recent post, she writes about the “place of stillness,” as described by Jonathan Franzen in an article in Time Magazine. Franzen’s words were inspiration enough, but it’s the quote Lisa uses to open her post that grabbed me:

“You have to protect your writing time. You have to protect it to the death.” – William Goldman

That got me thinking. Where am I devoting the majority of my writing time, and how can I redirect it towards more important projects?

A post from Michelle Davidson Argyle offers one suggestion, “slow blogging,” and highlights an essay from Anne R. Allen. In Allen’s essay, she discusses the dangers of blogging too often and the pros of blogging less often. Allen mentions writer/translator Lee Robertson, who shared his philosophy, “A blog is like frosting on top of the cake.” Then, Allen quotes Miss Snark:

…There’s a lot to be said for sitting down with your ownself and writing. Nothing, literally NOTHING replaces that. Focus. You’re wasting time.”

Someone, or something, was nudging me to pay attention, and finally I started listening. I’d been wondering how I might shake things up on this blog, set some new goals, and now it was clear.

Blog less, write more.

I still love the Wednesday Word challenge, so I won’t give that up. But, I will stretch out the schedule of those writing exercises. Every other Wednesday, I’ll still face off with Wordsmith.org and his logophilian self. Then, on alternate Wednesdays, you can look for a post on all things writing: author interviews, book reviews, essays on the craft of writing itself.

That means, posting once a week.

And, the other days of the week? Well, considering I just sent in my check for a writing class on Flash Fiction and a Roundtable critique for longer works (like a novel-in-progress…*ahem*), I’ll be writing.

And, reading.

And, I will NOT be obsessing about rising or falling stats or how many bloggers “like” my weekly posts (WordPress sure makes it easy to become gluttons for punishment).*

Where do you spend the majority of your writing time, and is the Universe directing you towards change?

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* I might obsess a little, but it’ll be my dirty little secret.

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Wed’s Word Flash Fiction: The Key to Success

Every Wednesday, on Writing Under Pressure, you’ll find a post based on Today’s Word (from Wordsmith.org). Past essays, poems, or flash fiction pieces can be found under Wednesday’s Word on the sidebar to the right.

Today’s word:

enfant terrible. noun. a person, especially someone famous or successful, whose unconventional lifestyle, work, or behavior appears shocking.

The initial read of this word didn’t spark any sort of passion. What’s “successful” and “shocking?” I wondered. Isn’t it all about perspective? Though, the more shocking a person, the more successful they seem to become.

Anyway, while jotting down ideas and a very rough draft, coffee weaseled its way into the mix.

Go figure.

Sometimes you just can’t explain the path of a writer’s mind.

In fact, I can’t even say for sure that this story has anything to do with shocking success. But, what is shocking is how many times I can use the word “coffee” in one short story.

*****

The Key to Success

Jackie packed up her pictures and her tape dispenser. She smiled and said thank you to everyone who passed her cubicle. She threw her head back in laughter when Mr. Carlson handed her a coffee cup that said “Hot tea is for wimps.”

Carolyn rolled her eyes and turned back to her hot water and lemon. She squeezed a package of honey into the cup and stirred. She took a sip. She surveyed her desk. She ran her finger across her keyboard and wiped off a layer of dust. Then, she reloaded her electric stapler, and she pressed the speaker button on her phone to make sure there was still a dial tone.

Carolyn ran the accounts of all the clients over 65. Their money sat in low-risk stocks and bonds. Her phone barely rang. Her clients never emailed. And, her profits never peaked. All those years studying at Brown did little for her except leave her with too many student loans.  She’d been sitting in the same cubicle, earning the same salary, for the last three years.

But Jackie somehow managed to move out of her cubicle and into her own office on the second floor within her first six months of working here. And, her profits rose and fell on a daily basis. She was terrible at managing money. Carolyn thought all of Jackie’s meetings with Mr. Carlson were warnings and threats.

Now, though, here Jackie was, laughing and packing and drinking her Hazlenut coffee with low-fat creamer. Jackie lifted her cup high in some salute to success.

“Coffee is for wimps,” Carolyn muttered.

“What’s that Ms. Nelson?” Mr. Carlson stood at the opening of her cubicle. Carolyn didn’t know how long he’d been there; she never even saw his shadow.

“Oh, good morning, Mr. Carlson. I’m just…looking for something,” she said.

“Fine.” He put his hands in his pockets. “I need to see you Ms. Nelson. In my office.”

Carolyn scooted her chair back, stood up, and adjusted her skirt. She took one more swig of her hot honey water, and Mr. Carlson shook his head. In his office, Mr. Carlson motioned towards one of his leather chairs, and Carolyn sat down.

“Ms. Nelson,” he said, as he faced the window.

“Yes?”

“You’ve been here a long time. Am I right?”

“Yes, Mr. Carlson. Three years.”

Three years and not one evaluation.
Three years and not a penny of a raise.
Three years and —

“And, you’ve never brought me a cup of coffee.”

“Coffee, sir?” she asked.

“Coffee.” Mr. Carlson turned from the window and glared.

Carolyn felt like she was sinking into the leather of the chair, so she sat up straight again.

“Oh,” she said.

“Coffee says a lot about a person, Ms. Nelson. Do they drink it black, with cream or sugar, or with both. Maybe they prefer skim milk. Or, two percent.”  He walked over to her chair and stood directly in front of her.

“Do they offer a cup to a colleague?”

Carolyn squirmed.

“Coffee,” he said, “is the pass-key to this world.”

“Coffee, sir?” she asked again.

“Coffee!” He pounded his fist on the arm rest next to her. “Aren’t you listening?”

“I’m listening, Mr. Carlson, but I don’t drink coffee.”

“And, that, Ms. Nelson, is the problem.” He let out a sigh of relief and walked back to the window.

“It’s all about marketing,” he said. “If you don’t drink coffee, Ms. Nelson, you won’t get anywhere.” With that, he turned to her again and stared right into her eyes.

“But, what do roasted beans and a bitter taste have to do with this company and profit margins, sir?”

He stomped over to his desk, scratched something out on a post-it, and ordered Carolyn to “call this number!”

Carolyn looked at the post-it on her way out of his office. It was the number for HR.

Damn right, I’ll be calling HR.

The woman in charge was named Nancy. When Carolyn walked in, Nancy pointed towards the plush couch next to the window. Her office smelled of fresh flowers and the only light on was a lamp on Nancy’s desk. Already, Carolyn felt at ease.

“So. Ms. Nelson. Why don’t you tell me why you’re here.”

Carolyn told Nancy everything: about the three years of her hard work with nothing to show for it, about the questionable promotions, and about Mr. Carlson’s weird, and somewhat threatening, lecture in his office.

Nancy sat quiet for a moment. She put her hand up to her chin and sighed.

“Well, it’s not sexist. It’s not racist. In fact, it’s perfectly legal,” she said.

“Legal?” Carolyn looked around Nancy’s office searching for the exit. “It’s crazy! I don’t know how this company stays on its feet if coffee comes before customer service!”

“Coffee is the pass-key to the world, dear.”

Carolyn sank into the couch and felt the pain of defeat. Or, maybe it was fear. Nancy stood up and walked to the couch with a cup of hot, steaming liquid.

Coffee.

“Maybe you should try it, dear. Just one cup.”

Carolyn swallowed hard. She took the cup in both hands and smiled.

“Sure,” she said. “One cup.” And, she pretended to take a sip.
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Wed’s Word and a little poetry: The Barista

Every Wednesday, on Writing Under Pressure, you’ll find a post based on Today’s Word (from Wordsmith.org). Past essays, poems, or flash fiction pieces can be found under Wednesday’s Word on the sidebar to the right.

Today’s word:

orison. noun. A prayer.

This week, the theme on Wordsmith.org is that there is no theme. Words rise from the pages of the dictionary at random. And, a word that means prayer could lead anywhere.

*****

The Barista

The alarm woke Lucy
From a sweet dream
Where she walked
On the beach,
Hand in hand,
With that handsome Barista
Who worked
At her favorite
Cafe.

His dark curls glistened in the sun.
She gazed into his eyes.
Her knees began to buckle.
He caught her
By the small of her back
And he smiled,
Not concerned
That she was older
By a decade, at least.

He leaned in for a kiss…

“Dear God,” Lucy sighed,
Then, she rolled out of bed.
“I’ve got to stop reading those books.”

In the mirror, she saw
Mostly hair.
A brown mass
All askew
And ready
To fight.
She brushed
And she teased
And she tried to tame.

“Jesus,” she said,
“I surrender, already”
And she raised her hands
To whatever!
Her hair
Had won.

She walked
To the corner
In quiet meditation.
Practicing
Her order
For the Barista.

Cafe latte, please.
Why yes, two percent.
You remembered,
How sweet.
My number?
Oh, Lord.
Of course.

In line for the counter,
Lucy studied the pastries.
Be subtle, she thought,
Don’t act desperate, she prayed.
But, she couldn’t
Forget
The dream.

The order began.
The latte,
The milk,
And then,
“Your card?”

He asked! she thought.
“My card,” she said.
So sly, this man.
Then, she paused
And fumbled,
And rifled
in her purse
For something
What was it?

“Your card,” he said.
“To punch,” he pointed
To the sign that promised
Free coffee to those
Who frequent
the shop.

“Dear God,” she sighed,
Her face bright red,
Her knees both weak.
“I have got to stop reading those books.”

*****

He’s missing the dark curls, but here’s the World’s Best Barista. Coffee, anyone?

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